Wednesday, April 5, 2017

.::. First Movements .::.

I was writing this post about my first trimester and all, but haven't quite finished that post and it's still sitting in my draft folder.  Yet here I am, already halfway into my second trimester.

I'm 17 weeks today.  We just had our gynae appointment over the weekend, and we are expecting a baby girl.  I think it just felt a little more real after knowing that she's a girl.  Like wow, I'm really going to have a daughter.

Actually, the whole point of sitting down to write amidst this crazy quarter-end closing cum budgeting week is to remember today.  Or perhaps the last few days.

I think I felt her movements.  Jaimie's movements. Our daughter's movements.

For the last few days, I felt strange movements in my tummy.  It wasn't like the usual cramps or tightening of my tummy.  It actually felt like someone was scraping my tummy lightly from inside and it came and went.  I started noticing it more often and wondered if it's her.  Then today, when I was concentrating on my endless excel spreadsheets, she was moving again.  It's as if she's asking for my attention as she moved relentlessly.  I had a passing thought, gosh, that's alittle annoying, I can't concentrate.  Then it hit me, that's my baby, moving inside me and living, growing inside me.

Then it felt, special.  I got alittle emotional feeling thankful to have her, thankful to be able to experience pregnancy as a woman, thankful to bear my beloved's child.

I hope I remember this moment and this warm wave of gratitude and awe.

Jaimie, you're going to be such a lucky girl.